Friday, 30 December 2022

2022: A year without writing?

A well-known saying attributed to a companion of the Prophet goes on: ((Hold yourselves to account, before you would be inquired)).

This companion reminds us that there will be a day when the heavens and the earth will perish as God Almighty created them before. It is the Hereafter and the Day of Judgement. And we will get brought into account on this day, and we will receive our records in our right hand or our left hand (May Allah give us them in our right hand).

This day is the day of reward for our actions, and there will be no opportunity in our hands to act.

The present life we ​​live in is the place of actions and deeds.

We possess plenty of opportunities to increase our good deeds, to change our mistakes, and to repent to God with sincere repentance and a pious heart for our sins.

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It seems as if the year 2022 began yesterday, and I did not realise how fast this year comes to its ending at a flashing speed as it started. It sounds like time is moving fast. When I self-assess myself, I notice that I have not been updating this blog since November 2021.

I used to work on writing a novel titled ((The Profession)), and I used to post the chapters here on this blog. I had been writing it with serious effort during the days of the Covid-19 lockdown. I had stopped writing this fiction as the story was getting closer to its climax.

There were some implicit objectives for writing this novel:

First: Improving and maintaining my English language skills, also for my personal growth.

Secondly: to prepare entertaining and interesting educational material for English learners.

The third: is to prepare a novel with the sort of customs and culture of the place where I live. I thought that this style would make reading easy for beginners.

The style of many English fictions is culturally and spatially foreign and perhaps also irrelevant in terms of time when it comes to the classics.

I was sad when I looked back and noticed the whole year 2022 had passed without writing this fiction, at least without writing a single chapter. It worried me. The struggles I went through to write this novel were tremendous. I spent many hours day and night, and perhaps I was awake by sacrificing my sleep for it.

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But this does not mean I was not engaged in any writing activity this year, 2022.

I had academic requirements to write three pieces of research, and I completed these pieces of research with as high quality as I could, with the help of God. (I am glad I still remain a student in my thirties). I cannot share these researches with you here on the blog because the publication rights of these researches belong to the university where I study, as is usually the case.

So I cannot say that I was free from writing this year. Instead, I was busy writing three pieces of research to the extent that I could not focus on writing this fiction.

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I hope to start writing the novel with a novel spirit once again, and I expect to complete it in the year 2023, God willing.

This post you read now is the only one I have published this year, 2022. I post it for the sake of having at least a single post this year

I don’t worry that this year went without being able to write a single chapter of this fiction. There were legitimate excuses for having been unable to write it. It is not perfectionism when there exists a one-year vacuum in writing that your blog remains un-updated for the whole year. But I am no longer a perfectionist.

Years ago, I stopped expecting perfectionism in the things I do and work. The growth of maturity in myself to accept that life is not always perfect; imperfections and mistakes are parts of our life. And I learned to acknowledge that life is inherently incomplete. Because perfection is for God alone, and we are humble humans, God created us in our weakest nature, and our knowledge and capabilities have their boundaries. There is no shame in acknowledging this reality.

Riza Jaufer
Kandy, Sri Lanka
30th December, 2022.